The truth? Or a bold-faced lie?

I tell myself. That I feel good. Even if I don't. It's a game that I play. And it's worked. All my life. I'm gullible. Easily fooled. But it's working. Less and  less. Because I'm trying to learn. To face my inner and brutal truth. But I suspect. I may be fooling myself once again. Because now I'm beginning to feel bad. When probably, I'm feeling good. I'm so very, very confused. Don't know any more. Whether I am feeling good or bad. Boils down. To no longer knowing whether I'm telling the truth. Or a bold-faced lie. --Jim Broede