At this moment in time.

I’m probably best off. At the moment. Marking time. Marching in place, so to speak. Rather than making big decisions. Such as selling my house. And buying another. If for no other reason. Than the uncertainty. About my future. Better to wait. To allow things to fall into place. Naturally. Depending on unpredictable events. My major focus. Is on my relationship. With Cristina. It’s working now. With the way it is. Works for both of us. Might as well let it evolve. Naturally. To go on living. As if happily ever after. Yes. Yes. I can imagine. Living six months in Sardinia. And six months in Minnesota.  Dividing my time. Between two locations. A back and forth life. But that involves complications. In order to make it work. Practically and effectively. Maybe dual citizenship. That may be impossible to achieve. And what about our age gap? Chances are. My physical and mental health will deteriorate. As I age. And I don’t want Cristina to become my care-giver. That would be intolerable. More reason. To take life as it occurs.  And adapt. On the move. When it becomes necessary. Sort of a one day at a time approach. Don’t get too far ahead of ourselves.  It would be different. If we were roughly the same age. Retiring. Together. Chances are. My future is short term. Cristina’s future may be more long term.  But I recognize. That life sometimes takes strange and mysterious turns. No better example. Than what my life has become. Since Jeanne died. In January 2008. I’d probably be making different decisions. Today. If Cristina were not in my life. But she is. And that’s the way I want it. And I think that’s the way she wants it, too. As for our futures. That depends on lots of things. But more importantly. We’ll make those decisions. Together. Jointly. And maybe based on circumstances. That we cannot foresee.  At this moment in time. --Jim Broede