Saturday, January 5, 2008

...the kind and compassionate and sensitive thing.

You know, folks, I think it’s all right to be in denial. About dementia. To some degree. It really doesn’t hurt. Particularly in the early stages. It’s nice to have some doubts. That maybe it isn’t Alzheimer’s. Jeanne and I both had doubts early on. That maybe it was just that Jeanne was getting a little lazy mentally. And that with a bit more mental stimulation, everything would be all right. After all, Jeanne had retired not all that long ago. And maybe the tendency is to slow down. To not push one’s self as hard as one used to. If this assumption did nothing else, it helped to improve Jeanne’s morale. And my morale. Really, no harm in that, is there? It really put Jeanne at ease. Made her far less worried. And that really improved her mental performance, it seems to me. Because a relaxed brain works more efficiently than an uptight one. So, what I’m doing here, I guess, is advocating a little bit of denial. Oh, it comes to the point when denial isn’t good any more. One needs to frankly admit to the problem, and deal with it head-on. By the time that happened, maybe Jeanne was beyond the point of worry. Or at least beyond the point of serious worry. So, denial for a while was the kind and compassionate and sensitive thing, it seems to me. --Jim Broede

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Jim,
Are you starting to become a kinder, gentle Jim, or are you just getting ready for the kill? If you keep on like this, you might actually have some people that like you. Watch it if your not prepared for that. But it would have to make you feel really good!

Anonymous said...

After the diagnosis it is hard for a caregiver to have long periods of denial or experience many feelings of optimism...Especially if they spend a great deal of time on the Alz. forums.

Since Charlie’s diagnosis, there have been steady losses but life is still pretty good in our little corner of North Carolina. If Charlie knows (or remembers) that he has been diagnosed as having A/D, he is doing a very good job of denial. I hope it continues... For the present...Living in the moment and savoring the good ones seems like the best alternative. There is no reason for both of us to worry about something that we cannot fix.

Until reading this blog entry, I believed that I was merely attempting to survive by following this path. Reading that I was being kind, and compassionate and sensitive added a nice twist.