Makes me wonder.

I suppose what I'm doing is creating my own reality. When I sit down and write, for instance. I'm creating thought. Often, a chain of thought. I don't know what I'm going to be thinking next. I haven't thought it out ahead of time. I'm unable to get ahead of myself. I'm always in the now. Never in the future. Crazy. But that fascinates me. Just being able to think. That's my creation. Thought. Some degree of self-awareness. And of the world around me. And how I connect to it. The way I have connected to people. Positively fascinating. I wouldn't have been able to think like this when I was 5 or 10 or 15 years old. It's easier for me to think when I write, when I record my thoughts. Because then I can see the flow. If I just think this while I'm out walking, it doesn't get recorded. And much of it slips away. Possibly forever. Thoughts are so elusive. So many of 'em. It's hard to keep track of every thought. Impossible. But by writing, I can see what I was thinking a year ago. Sometimes, I read those thoughts. And they seem the thoughts of a stranger. Makes me wonder if I've changed that much. --Jim Broede